De allerliefste oma van de wereld
{feb 23rd - }

I've tried serveral times to write a blog, but everytime I press the backspace button. I don't know what to type actually, cause there happened so much, yet I don't want to tell everything over here. Just let me say, my grandpa feels better, my grandma on the other hand is in the hospital and the doctors don't know what to do with her foot. I'm really scared that this time they'll tell us they can't help her. The last 2 years we've been in an emotional rollercoaster and I think we just got on the top and are going down very fast.
It started with the bloodpoisoning, the amputations, the bacteria infections that never ended, the seperation from my granddad, the many times she has been on the ICU.
This time it's diffrent, normally she was only fysical ill, but this time she's also mentally ill. The past two weeks have been a real eye opener. She doesn't know where she is, what she does, she pulls off her own IV out of her arms(infuus for the dutchties). Makes up stories that are never there. She gets a lot of medicines to calm her down.

Yesterday I held her hand and I was thinking how I held her hands so many times, this time she was an old woman who didn't know anything. A woman who's lost in a room.
She's not the grandma who used to sing with me, who used to buy books with me, make delicious food and call everyday when I had a hard period for hours.
I came to realisation what I've known now for serveral months, this is not what quality of life is supposed to be.

I'm just typing up what comes into my mind, I don't even know if it's correct English, but it feels really good to finally let go. I'm really typing this down with tears running down my cheeks. I really want to let go, but at the same time I don't want to.

It's a big question what the doctors will say.. how the next weeks are going to be.
I don't know if I will blog again soon, but if I don't than I don't feel like it because of stuff thats going on right now.


De allerliefste oma van de wereld - Claudia de Brij (the sweetest grandma of the world)
Besides my family, there is also a lot of other things going on like school.. I have 2 exams next week, very difficult. So I need full concentration!!

Commenters
I want to thank each and every one of you for your encouraging words.. It helps me :)

Maria, pake and beppe got your card from Nicaragua. Pake was so happy and delighted and Beppe.. well honestly she didn't recognise you at first, she said it was Charlotte... :( But the next day she asked me to read the card and clapped her hands. I'm sure she's also very happy.
I'm really touched that you've send a card. You don't know how much it means to them. Besides that TODAY I BOOKED OUR TRIP TO NORWAY BABE!!!!!

Lotte, Malous, Kim, Helene, Sarah, Caithlin, Olga, Samantha.

Love,
Remma | MS

Life can change so fast..
{feb 11th - }

Wow, where shall I start?
The past days have been so hectic, my thoughts have been wandering everywhere. I don't really know what I should think of the situation.
Friday I was in Anatomics class and I recieved an text message from my mom saying: "Grandma is going back to the nursing home,Im leaving from work". I thought here we go again. Anyways after the class finished I decided to take the bus to the nursing home. My grandma was laying in bed and my grandpa was sitting on a chair next to her.
We chatted a bit, nothing dramatic really... My mom was downstairs to check the times from the busses, and suddenly my grandpa started shaking, sweating and I was like.."Grandpa!!" I runned to the nurses and before I knew there were like 6 nurses around him, 2 doctors. They made an ECG of his heart. They told us he collapsed because of the stress and stuff. I still remember my grandma screaming "He can't leave me, I'll go with him!"

Adrealine was pumping through my veins, I did everything I could and called people. I went downstairs to call my aunt and tell everything. After I hung up, I suddenly started shaking so much. I realised what I just had seen. It was so scary..

My grandpa is doing fine now, he is still VERY tired, my grandma.. another story
She doesn't know where she is, she's telling a lot of bull, and it's not the same grandma. Her physical condition is very bad.

Besides everything that happened, I still enjoyed the weather. It was marvellous!! Yesterday I walked 2 hours with Nora. :) I looveeee sun and it makes these days a bit brighter!

Commenters
Maria, Malous, Caithlin, Olga, Kim, Chiya, Samantha.

Love,
Remma | MS

Some stories on me
{feb 1st - }

I have some good news about myself haha.
Today is the day.. I got my CPR (for the dutchies: reanimatie) diploma. Yahooo! I did an exam today, I had the right technique, I just had to think about the chin, cause I had to lift it more. So when you plan to almost die, I can save ya ;) Just be around me haha.

I signed up for some new classes, cause the new semester started. I have some very nice ones!!
1. Psychology
2. Verpleegtechnisch handelen (translation?)
3. Coordination of healthcare
4. Anatomics 2
5. Moving technics

So yes I'm quite happy about it!

Yesterday I was a model for my neighbour she is a hairdresser. It was for brides haircuts, I'll show you haha. Well it's together with my sweet dog, but you can see it a bit ;)

Commenters
Maria, Noelle, Malous, Lotte, Chiya,

R.I.P. Heath Ledger
{January 25th - }



I'm still a little bit in shock, he was so young! Well I made a little tribute to him and one of his best movies Brokeback mountain.

Commenters
Maria, Noelle, Kim, Olga, Malous, Caithlin, Kim,

Worldtrip in a weekend
{January 21st - }

I felt like I made a worldtip in 5 days... :D
I've been in: Stadskanaal, Sellingen, Groningen, Tilburg, Schiphol, Den Bosch, Utrecht, Rotterdam, and also in *tadadaaa* Asia, Africa, South America.. yes ;)
LOL... okay let's be honest, the last continents are.. not fully true, I went to Blijdorp, a zoo. So they named all the parts of the zoo after continents.

Friday we left at 3 AM from Sellingen, we brought Maria to Schiphol and she was so tired, I really felt for her. I had a good laugh at all the sercurity guards with their guns, lol. They were bugging parents who made pics of their children. LOL.. terrorist dangeerrr!! :P
At 10.14 I took the train to Esje and at 11.45 I arrived in Tilburg. We watched a movie, but I was soo fucking tired (remember I already was up from 2 AM and I slept like 3,5 hours. So.. I decided to sleep at Esje's for 2 hours, after that I felt better.
On Saturday we shopped, I bought some really pretty green earrings and on sunday Cliff, Esje and I went to Blijdorp.. (BOKITOOOOOOOO!!!!) Remember the gorilla who escaped and bit the woman? Yes I met him, he was so sexy ;) I love hair haha! (just kidding, just so you dont think I love hairy man, lol I rather have them with less hair)
So that my weekend. I'll edit this post later, and I will add some pics :)
Oh remember by the way the video I talked about that I created for Maria...Here it is.. tell me what you think.

Commenters
Thanks each and everyone of you for the comments, I love you and I'll comment you back :)


Layout switcher? Guilty!
{January 14th - }

Oh gee, I'm the official layour switcher.. I'm guilty!!
I was just playing and suddenly it turned out quite hot, so I was like.. oh I really want to show it off, so here it goes, lol how do you like it?

I've been behind the pc all day, I feel like a nerd, exept it was for school. I just rearranged my portfolio. It's so much work, but in the end, I'm quite satisfied with the result. Talking about school, I'm quite busy... I have to pleed guilty to something else again.. School wasn't my first priority the past couple of weeks. And now in the end, I regret it and I want to do my exams for both Anatomics and Medical Maths, so yes, the last one is easy to do, but Anatomics, it's so hard, and I only attended like 3 classes. Ugh!
Anyways what I did past week is promise myself I'm going to take the exams. I planned it at the begin of the semester, so this is the way it goes. I'm so harsh on myself ;) LOL

Next week will be a week full of emotions, I'm sure, besides my stress on school, I'll also have to say goodbye to Maria, this time for sure. Friday morning she'll leave to Nicaragua, she'll be fantastic there! But yet it's hard to say goodbye.
After that I'll be leaving to Tilburg to visit Esther and Cliff. I need to check out their new home and I'll stay there until Monday. Yay!

Last week I made this video montage from Maria and my friendship, it was so pretty. I worked hours on it, and I showed it her and at the end we were hugging and crying in eachother arms. Oh we are some dramaqueens haha ;) LOL.. it looks like were a couple now, lol, for your info we're just friends, haha!!!

Site stuff
Finally I'll do what I promised haha, and that is... make new adjustments to the site.
I added a new PHP script to the site, Icon sort, it's easy for me this way to catogorize the icons. I added as well some new icons



I also wrote 2 new tutorials for you:
+ Soft glow
+ How to make an icon

The Plugs
Maria, Noelle, Lotte, Malous, Kim, Helene, Jay, Caithlin, Maaike, Raymond, Sarah, Eilidh, Manon,

Happy new year, with a new layout
{January 1st - }

I have a new layout up! So what do you think? Do you like it? I actually do, in a long time.
So Happy new year to you! I hope 2008 will bring you lots of joy and luck. Well I was looking at a horoscope in a magazine. I don't know what to think of it, lol 2008 ain't going to be my best year haha.
I won't have any dicipline for my study, and I will get even more fat, lol, oh and my muscles will hurt more. Well you will see it in my blogs this year if it will happen, haha. Oh one good note, I will have a sparkeling sex life, for your info, haha. *laughs*

A few days ago I was at Maria her party, she's leaving in 17 days to Nicaragua, and well we had to celebrate her careermove :P
We had lots of fun, you can read it in her log, I don't want to repeat stuff haha. All I can say, I have nice curls, so some (HOT) drunk guy told me, and uhh some other guy (NOT SO HOT) kept bugging me, so I actually hit him. Girl power ;)


Im in the upper right

The Plugs
I will plug next time, but thanks to each and everyone for the comment.


Merry christmas!
{December 25th - }

I got tagged by Maria

3 bands or artists you learned to know this year
1. David Bisbal. He is hotttt :)
2. Jeroen van der Boom. I have to admit it, I sung my heart out to his song this year.
3. Alain Clark. He sounds so NOT dutch, I love it :)

3 things you did this year that you'll never forget.
1. My internship at Erasmusheem, where I stood up for my rights and looking back I'm very proud!
2. Nursing a woman who was ill from cancer, the first time I cared for a terminal woman. Ill never forget that.
3. My vacation with Maria to Maarn, we had so much fun in the woods haha.
I'll add another one hahaha:
4. Drivinglessons, hahaha I can write a book about it ;)

3 Dumbest things you did this year.
1. Not talking to a person while I KNEW he liked me.
2. Forget an apointment
3. Spending to much money on things I don't actually really need.

3 things that make you proud.
1. The first time I injected a person and it went well!
2. Being there for my grandparents, always, the reward Im getting is priceless
3. Becoming me, getting to know myself better, to look back on old assignments I made and smile because I grew as a person.

3 people who may fill this in now;)
Lotte, Samantha & Olga.
Note from me: A great way to reflect on your year haha!

2007
This makes me reflect on my year, and wow there happend so much..
GRANDMA
My grandma who has been on the verge of being dead, and than not, and so on. I remember when my family from denmark was here and we were in the hospital and they had to leave to denmark again.
What a big tearjerker, really we thought it was the 'real' last goodbye, and in the hallway there were people singing from church, so really depressing, and we were crying.
NURSE
Than on the other hand, how I've been growing into my role of being a nurse. At the beginning of this year I didn't know how to wash a man's you knoe what, or I didn't experience it yet, this year I did 2 internships. One which really sucked, one who was wonderful. I learned how to take care of people, how to inject, how to use a PEG tube.
For the first time took care of a woman who was ill from cancer. I saw her slipping away, it was very overwelming to see how the actually proces of dying goes, and how much I actually meant. The thing I'm most proud of was that the woman said to me: You're so sweet. , it was empowering. The thing I never forget was when she passed away and we had our final chat with the partner. She told me how she spoke in the church telling the people there were some angels in her partners life. One of them was me. wow. I made a diffrence in someones life. Im proud :)
2008
I hope next year will bring me lots of good.. Things that I have planned so far :)
- Waving maria goodbye at the airport :)
- Doing an internship!
- Bowling with the girls from livedaily!!
- 2 Backstreet Boys concerts
- Enjoying life and making the best out of it :)!!!
- Getting my driverslicence

This will be my last blog in 2007, I promise 2008 will be good for you! Be careful with firework peeps and I hope you'll have a healthy 2008!!


Let it snow, let it snow..
{December 22th - }

Yes it snowed for 2 days, not very much, but still!! I like snow :)
But guess who was awfully ill? Yes, me. I think I never felt worse than I felt the past days. I woke up thursday-friday night and I felt sick, so, okay I warn you scroll down if you dont want to read it lol, threw up 16 (!!!!!!!!) times in a night, plus another few gross details. I was standing in the bathroom, and I felt helpess, it was midnight and I was shaking and almost in disbelieve I was so sick. Ugh!
The eavning before I called with my friend, Marijse, and we wanted to finish a project we were busy with at school, cause we're running out already. So I felt horrible for not being able to be there. I lived for 1 day with only water, nothing else, than the next day I started drinking some 'karnemelk' (How do you say that in english?) and today I actually ate something for the first time. Ugghh!

Well enough about my illness, I have some good news to share with you all!!
During the years I had this blog, I spend dozens blogs on my grandma who was very ill at times, sometimes a bit better, and than back on ICU. But I'm glad to tell she is back with my grandpa! She got reunited 2 days ago with him, (They were separated, she was in a nursing home and he was at home) YES!! Im happy :)

What am I planning to do for the holidays?
Celebrating health and happyness with my family... :) I'm also going out clubbing thursday.. Maria is throwing an "I leave" party. My best buddy will go 4 months to Nicaragua, to help children who are troubled on the street. Props to her!!

OH AND EVEN MORE GOOD NEWS!!
I'm going to see the Backstreet Boys, they will tour in 2008!! April 6th in Rotterdam Ahoy! and May 2nd in Oberhausen! Yes baby!!

For you!
I'm not going to give away plugs, but I want to wish you all happy holidays and I made a special gift for you :)


Lost!!!!
{December 10th - }

I'm so angry! I cursed too much today! But I feel I have the right too.. Remember that my cell phone was broke a serveral months ago? Well it was fucking expensive to fix it... Now yesterdaynight I LOST my cellphone.
John called me this morning, 'Why did you call?'.. I was like wtf I didn't call you... Well someone called from my cellphone at 7.27 AM. John was the last person who I called yesterday.. So I think someone found it and tried to call someone...

So .. I went to the policestation and I called my mobile service point to block my cellphone and SIM.
Oh what a day... I feel thankfully blessed. NOT.

My mood is awfully, so I wont even blog any further. Im about to break down in tears. My goddamn mobile! with all the pictures ... *sniff*
The Plugs
Maria, Sarah, Lotte, Olga & Kim

New layout and 3 years anniversary!
{December 5th - }

Yes I planned to be back earlier, but life interrupted my plans. I have been so busy, - and I know it's not an excuse, but I have been really busy.
3 days ago it was our 3rd anniversary!! Yes baby!!!! Things are going so soon and I realize I'm getting older.

Today we celebrate Sinterklaas, Saint Nicholas, it's a Dutch tradition. Sinterklaas brings us presents ;) haha, Monday I celebrated it with my family. It was so much fun, we did everything with poems and lol I got this very nice Surprise... a diamont lol made out of silverpaper. Very creative! This morning we celebrated it at school with my coachgroup, we did this game and it was sooo much fun! LOL I had a blast, I got socks and theyre soo nice!

December will be a fun month for me! A lot of bithdays coming up and ofcourse the holidays, I will also go to the Nursing Event 2007 together with Michiel, Valarie, Maryse. I think it will be a lot of fun!! Today I learned about yellow and black wounds, it was quite interesting, althrough I've already seen it in real life, it's nice to hear the theory about it. It's quite funny to see how everything at school isn't the same as on work... Talking about work, oh my biggest fear ever happened to me sunday! I was working past weekend and ever since I work in the healthcare it's my biggest fear to sleep through my alarm clock. And sunday was the big day! It was 7.05 AM! WAAAYYY TO LATE!
I was supposed to be at work already! And everything worked against me, I couldn't find the medicines of a client and a while later when I went to someone else, that person turned to be very sick. Ugh Ugh! Time people! LOL
Poor me, don't you think?

Well I'm still changing the website, I'll change the you section and stuff, but I'll do that later!
As for the affiliate requests, something went wrong and I lost the past emails from people requesting to be affiliates. Please use the contact form again so I can add you!

The Plugs
Noelle, Maria, Sarah, Lotte, Samantha, Olga & Kim

College has started again
{November 18th - }



I started college again and I know I have started again. Friday I went to college, I was early and suddenly I saw 2 classmates of mine Michiel and Wouter sitting on a table in the hallway. I stood there and they were joking about nothing, and they kept joking about this commercial saying: 'Goedemoggel' to everybody who came by. I have to say... It was pretty hilarious, I really felt like I started college again. Goodbye seriousness from internship, Hello.. having fun again! :D
So as we were sitting in our coachgroup, Michiel and Wouter kept on going, than my coach told me to switch places so I had to sit in between them. Oh gosh, I felt really sorry for myself cause I was soo innocent. LOL.

I did got my schedule fixed, thank the lord!!

The Plugs
Noelle, Lotte, Olga & Helene

Life in cartoon motion
{November 15th - }

Yes. a new layout again, I really disliked the layout I had up before this one. So I made a temporary new one.
Yesterday I went to see a doctor because I had a serveral things I wanted to discuss, I got lots of diffrent creams lol. Anyways I rushed with the bus to school, we needed to sign up for the workshops. (Workshops are classes we need to attend, they tried to pimp the name up I guess), so I was watching the time-table and it I planned everything for myself, so then I went to the classrooms where you'd be able to sign in. The signing in started at 1 pm. Really there were hundreds of students and they only let in 10 at a time. OH GOSH!
How I hate this school sometimes. So Everybody was pushing like I was on a fucking Backstreet Boys concert, it was insane and I got really annoyed, cause I was pretty late. When I got in serveral workshops were full, so I had to re-schedule everything and I'm still thinking how I need to do it. Ugh!

After that, I went to my grandpa because his esophagus needed to be made wider. I took care of him, he wanted to thank me by giving me €10,00, Really I don't need money for taking care of him. It's in the name of love, I dont need a thank you in any way.
Oh well.. LOL.. That was my very interesting day yesterday ;)

This day in history
November 15th 2002 - Leeuwarden, FEC.
Yes this day it's 5 years ago I met Nick Carter for this first time, lmao. Oh how things have changed, thank god I'm not such a screaming teenybopper no more.
*mental note: Screaming for a kiss.. ouch!*
BUT I DID GOT IT, THE KISS, BY NICK CARTER BABYYYY!!

The Plugs
Noelle, Lotte, Kadri, Maria, Helene

Finishing..
{November 9th - }

Yes, you notice it correctly, a new layout. I got sick of the old one, I had a hard time creating something. I threw away about 3 other layouts and this is the one I got most satisfied with. So there you go.

How has life been treating me? Good, very good. I passed my internship! Yesterday was my last day and they gave me wonderful orange flowers. It was hard to say goodbye, but I'm also fine with starting the new semester at school again.



How do you like this? LOL, this picture was made back in May/June, but I just recieved it, lol. It's me, really, beneath all that.
Up to the real clothes, I went shopping with Maria and my parens on Saturday and I bought 2 new jeans. They're so cool. Also I bought some jeans-skirt... Yesterday I bought some make up: foundation, eyeliner, lipgloss. Guess who is almost broke now? >.<

Oh by the way I also have tickets for Ciske De Rat, the musical for September 2008!! Yay!!!

The Plugs
I've got some things to say: Maria you're going to Nigaragua girl!! My biatch, Im going to wave goodbye to you at the airport!!
Kadri, my girl what a wonderful layout!! You know what? I'll let go of Bri, I have Nick now. PLAYTIME BABYYY!!

thanks for the comments:
Helene, Olga, Evelien Noelle, Montse & Lotte.

Unbreakable
{October 30th - }

Friday the new Backstreet Boys album got released, like in the old days I went to the Free Record Shop and they had exactly ONE copy (lol) DELUXE, still in a box. Lucky me ;)
I waited until I was online together with Esje and while I listened for the first time to the songs, I felt the old familiar excitement. I was almost headbanging, lol jumping around and typing to esje "Oh My Paco", I was speechless, I'm so glad I didnt had a webcam on, cause I looked like a total teenybopper. The songs are up tempo mostly and so pretty. I have to be honest this album is better than my favourite album Millennium. Wow. I'll write a review on every song. You can click and listen to it on youtube :)
01. Intro: Finally an intro from Backstreet Boys. I waited freaking long for this and it's all a capella.

02. Everything But Mine: This is definitly a freaky dance song, yes I like it, lots! It could be played in a club, I guess.
03. Inconsolable: The first single, not their best song on the album, but I like it :) Memoriessss..
04. Something That I Already Know: This is a very nice song, It's a ballad and it makes me go back to Millennium days, the chorus is the catchy old bsb feeling.
05. Helpless When She Smiles: A nice balled, it's okay, but not very exciting honestly, I skip it ;)
06. Any Other Way: It has a small sample of Abba's Gimme Gimme in the beginning, lol I like this uptempo song! very catchy sing a long, love to see this live.
07. One in a Million: My favourite song, it starts of mysteriously and when the chorus hits of it's totally jamming!
08. Panic: Oh also one of the very good songs on the album, it's written by BSB and it's one of their best written stuff. Love the uptempo!!
09. You Can Let Go: It sounds someway very familiar, but it's definitly a very nice BSB song, let's say very typical for a BSB song.
10. Trouble is: *SCREAMS* Howie, wow, I love this country feeling, lol It sounds so hot, I didnt even know howie could sing like that!
11. Treat Me Right: Also favourite, the most SHOCKING bsb song on the album. Wow, it has a Timberland vibe to it, can you imagine?! Yes I love it, listen to this one!
12. Love Will keep you up all night: Ballad, wow, very nice piano sound in the beginning, I like the sing-along feeling.. this will be also nice live.
13. Unmistakable: Nice ballad, this is going to be a favourite ballad I think! It just sounds soo nice to me.
14. Unsuspecting Sunday Afternoon: I love the title btw, lol, It's a very nice dramatic BSB ballad. LOL

There are also some bonustracks but you need to buy the album, lol I swear, it's the best ever!

The Plugs
Thanks for the nice, very nice comments, I alone want to plug Lotte with her wonderful new layout: Lotte.

Pictures say it all
{October 19th - }

Sometimes pictures say more than a thousand words, so let me show you the pics I made during my Autumn vacation. I went to Denmark and I went with Lucy to Nijmegen.















and my birthday is coming up, october 21st baby!!!!

The Plugs
Noelle, Lotte, Anita, Maria, Montse Samantha

Just life...
{October 10th - }

Oh what a happy day. LOL, really Im so tired!!
I started today at 8 AM at Thuiszorg Groningen, my internship, and I did some people by myself, just the basic washing and stuff, after that I went to a person who had diabetes and a wound and lol it was the first time I did this, I had to clean the wound, but somehow I forced too much water in it and it was shooting through the living room, ooops ;)
I realised it's just 3 more weeks and it will be over and Im so sad, cause Im really having a good time.

Friday I'm leaving to Denmark to visit my family over there, it's been a while and my causin is pregnant, so Im really curious.


My birthday is coming up in a week, so I need to invite people, and I keep forgetting it, lol I'm horrible.

Just a question, do you know any nice songs to download? thank you! :D

The Plugs
Gaby, Sarah, Raymond, Maaike, Kadri, Maria2x, Samantha

Just something I want you to watch..
{October 3rd - }

I dont have really something interesting to blog about, all I want you to see it this:
It's sooo hilarous, Paris Hilton has no reply back LOL... and he just keeps digging on her jailtime and she is getting annoyed further on. LOL
It amused me, very much!

Other things I want you to know right now:
1. I dyed my hair some strawberry brown color
2. I'm in need of hot chocolat
3. My dog is feeling not too well
4. My birthday is in 3 weeks!!! , 21st october!!

[edit] A picture of my dyed hair....

Like it?
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The Plugs
Noelle2x, Lotte, Montse, Evelien Pauline, Kadri, Maria, Samantha

OMG We're never gone!
{September 26th - }

I feel like a newborn. The Hallelujah stuff made me go insane. No it didn't. But it was kind of odd, I even have to admit.
So Brian Littrell, he was such a cutie. The day started for me at a small village called Sellingen, I was celebrating Maria her birthday, at 1,30 PM I left Sellingen to travel for just 4,5 hours to Biddinghuizen. Like for real, I knew my goal was to see Brian, but the trip it self was lame and boring. So I met with Lotte and Thomas at Walibi. We waited for Esje and Cliff, I never forget Thomas' face. "Is that guy Cliff?", scary face. Yes he is HUGE. Haha :)

I was prepared for all the I love Jesus talks and the music was fine so yay, but I have to admit that it got to a point where I thought.. oh help! They wanted to pray, okay fine I thought, but everybody put their hands in the air and it was like they were in sort of trance, I can't describe it, but It was a bit TOO much for me.
as the night went on people started shouting for Brian, lol and than finally he came onstage! He was incredible, it was worthed, it really was. He has suxh an amazing voice, a talent to entertain and to inspire people.
The good thing is, the first concert where people weren't pushing. LOL

Well see we had a goodtime:



Because I'm in such a Backstreet Mood, In created my backstreet layout, you gotta love it ;)
The Plugs
Maria, Olga, Noelle, Lotte, Maaike, Kadri, Evelien

Love,
Remma | MS

I'm fifteen again
{September 16th - }

Hello my darlings, Im back again, like Backstreet's Back again, alrighttt!!
Yes that didn't make any sense, but it might be explaining why I feel like fifteen again. When I was fifteen I had one of the biggest BSB sites on the WWW, I can say Im still very proud til this day and it makes me smile when people know it :)
This is the first album release where I can't post news on the site, a little bit odd, but I guess I'm moving foward.
I came to the scary realization that in 5 weeks i'm turning NINETEEN, thats freaking old, well not very old, but it's my last year as a teenager, so I guess thats a valid reason to still:
1. Adore Nick and wanting to lay next to him in the new clip. Hallelujah, hotness ALL OVER
2. Stalking Brian next saturtday in Biddinghuizen
3. Telling everyone about their new single
4. Tell Maria she needs to vote for the single and in the end she has her one minute of fame on 538 where she said the song is sooo cuuuuteee

Yes I'm still a teenybopper, and I know I said too many times that I've grown so much, but when it comes back to Backstreet Boys, maybe I haven't. LOL
Oh well, Im sure going to post pictures of Brian, and ofcourse of me having a good time ;)

The Video *tadtaatatada*
D'oh ofcourse I can't leave without at least putting the video here:

You love it, don't ya?
HAVE YOU SEEN NICK AT 0:14... OMG ORGASM RIGHT THERE *maybe a more mature fifteen year old comment ;)*

The Plugs
Maria, Raymond, Evelien Noelle, Olga, Samantha

Love,
Remma | MS

Politcals, Poems and Icons (LOL what a combi!)
{September 8 - }

Yes what a fast update hah! I got ill the past days, so yea uh, I feel so sorry for myself.
I was watching Paul and Witteman, a dutch tv program, and I got really annoyed, ofcourse I saw it in every news bullentin, but still I got annoyed again.Geert Wilders, oh geez what a subject,
Describe him: A big ago, is a racist and having a political party, supported by a lot of dutchies, which causes my concerns.,
There was this debat yesterday, he wants to ban the Koran, oh and I just really want to vent right now :D So please give my time!
I posted this on a BSB forum, yes I was annoyed lol, very annoyed

Bloody, i'm sooo irritated by the evil Geert Wilders, he's a discriminating ass****.

What a releave!!!
I don't know if anybody has followed the news but I think the man has never read the bible!
He told the world beautifully that if you take every violent part out of the Koran that the book is as big as a Donald Duck.
I almost pied in my pants because of laughing, like the bible tells about drinking a cup of tea. Really.
Geez that man has to come back to reality and search his resources and maybe he would be respected a bit more if he didn't obviously want to raise hate and violace between the so called, I hate the word, islams and whities.
And than he calles Vogelaar "crazy as hell" because she made the realistic point in a newspaper that the dutch culture will change into a Jewish, Katholic, Islamitic culture.

Oh geeee, our politics.... *shakes head*... I need to make the world better, very fast!!


So LOL, Rems goes political ;)
On to a other note, my driving lesson went actually quite good, for a change! LOL

The Art + Poem
I made new BSB icons.


I also made a poem, basted on my internship, well it's not the best of the best, but well I wanted to post it anyways, tell me what you think.

Other..
Yes I have been tagged by Helene. Yes, and I can't deny it ;) LOL
The rules are:
Each person posts the rules before their list, then they list 8 things about themselves. At the end of the post, that person tags and links to 8 other people and then visits those people’s sites and comments letting them know that they have been tagged, and to come read the post, so they know what they have to do.
My list:
1. I clean peoples asses.
2. I will fall in love with Maria in November.
3. My dog is the cutest in the world
4. My dad wants me to find a guy, meaning I need to hurry.
5. I just sneezed.
6. I live in the country where weed is legal, we wear wooden shoes and live in windmills LOL
7. I think the new version of Nick Carter is HOT
8. I'll turn 19 on october 21st ;)

Im tagging: Maria, Lotte, Raymond, Kadri, Miekie, Olga, Noelle, Olga, Samantha

The Plugs
Maria, Miekie, Lotte, Sarah, Raymond, Helene,

Love,
Remma | MS

Undiscovered
{September 4 - }

A new layout, a new start a new everything. I hope you like it :)
It's the start of a new schoolyear and it will mean I have more time to work on the site. I have some ideas coming up, but Im not sure if I'll do something with it.

I started with my internship at Thuiszorg Groningen, a homecare service, It's so much better than my last internship. I'm doing a lot of nurse technical trade (if thats correct?) and Im liking it!!

Did I tell you I started doing drivingslessons?
Oh well, I don't care, it's so much fun. I'm really horrible, lol, summary of my lessons:
ONE: Went pretty well, I learned how to use everything and how to make turns. Hallelujah.
TWO: Started horrible, first 10 seconds and I already almost hit a car while the neighbourhood watched. ARGH!
THREE: I believe it was this lesson where I almost hit a motorcycle ;)
FOUR: Things are going smootly, I did a hill-proof, and I did it okay yaaaaay ;) I didn't even hit anybody haha
FIVE: I started learning how to use the mirrors, when I watch over my shoulder I will turn to the left, on the other side of the road, really Im horrible ;)

Tomorrow I have my sixth driving lesson, so stay out of my way and wish me luck! :D

The Art
I made this layout, please comment :D


The Plugs
Maria, Marieke, Lotte, Sarah, Raymond, Jexi,

Love,
Remma | MS

Stupid mistake
{August 26th - }

Oh gee, tomorrow mugshot time? Could be..
I made the most stupid mistake at my work, I take all the blame and I feel really stupid. I told you before I worked at ZorgThuis, a homecare service. Anyways like always I take all the keys of the people who are on my list with me. So as usual I did all the stuff, showered people and when I finished and wanted to bring back the medicines, keys, etc, I found out that I lost a key of someones house. After searching a hundred time in my purse, I realized it was probably still at the persons house. But it isn't, so the official way things go from now on will be:
They'll do a report at the police station, and since I was the last person who had my hands on the keys, I will be heard probably. Arggh! Happends to me...... blah

Anyways on to a happier note: Esje came to me Friday!!! Yay! I picked her up from the Central Station at 22.14 PM to be exact, and we chatted the whole night and Saturday we went to the Zoo in Emmen, there was a baby eliphant, sooo cute! Today we went to Noorderzon, a performing arts festival in my city. It was sooo busy, we also went to the cinema. Soo much fun!
Tomorrow I'll start at my new internship, sooo Im going off to bed now, it's 10.30 ;)

The Plugs
Maria, Samantha, Helene, Lotte, Raymond, Olga, Esje, Pat & Noelle.

Lolita
{August 16th - }

I finally got time to start blogging again, it's been a while. I have done so much, so sit back get some popcorn and read. ;)
Maria and I have been on a vacation to the Utrechtse Heuvelrug, I swear I didn't know we had such beautiful nature in Holland. It's so pretty. Our camping was on top of a mountain (LOL) so my legmuscles are trained for sure ;)
We did a lot of cool things. We've been to Scheveningen and I got sunburned (as always!) and after that we went to The hague, we met a hot security guard who tried to convince us that it's s cool city, well it's NOT. LOL, so we went to Gouda because The Hague was booorring.
The next day we went cycling, very cool, this time we met a freak, but wont explain cause he's scary, and dont want to think back lol.
We went to Utrecht and to Maastricht, where my shoes were imitating Spongebob, lol the rain loved my shoes. We also went to the caves, it was so interesting! We also visited Huis Doorn, where the Dutch emperor Wilhelm II lived after 1919.

Today I had my third driving lesson, it was so much fun. The last one sucked, cause well everything went wrong. But I actually really felt okay with it this time, the only little mistake I made was that I almost hit a motorcycle, lol. OOOOPSSS ;)
I can drive much better than the guys we saw on the camping, i KNOW that for sure ;) LOL

Urhm more news?
Not really I have some wonderful videos of the vacation that Im going to post on my youtube account. CH-CHECK IT!
The Art
I made a new video montage of the BSB, it's featuring their new song Inconsolable, (what a word haha) but I reallly love it, yay BACKSTREETS BACK BABY! (Did I tell that Im going to see Brian on a Hallelujah festival in Holland?) yay!


The Plugs
I want to give a big fat plug to my new hostee, Maria. :) Visit her!!

Samantha, Helene, Montse & Maria :)

Next trip
{August 3rd - }

Oh I'm so sorry for leaving you alone for a while, but I had some good reasons. I've been so busy these past 2 weeks. I've been working at ZorgThuis, it's even better than I expected. The people are so nice and kind and ofcourse there are also some interesting patients. So yay! Besides that We've also been painting our walls from the living room. One wall is chocolate brown and I love it, everytime I watch it Im craving for chocolate, lol not good for my addiction. :P


Isn't it pretty :)

Anyways I just wanted to let you know that Im going on a small trip with Maria, so please comment me meanwhile, Ill be sending some love back when Im back home, about a week. :)
The Plugs
Its late and I want to sleep but I just wanted to tell I love you all :)

Texel
{July 17th - }

I've been on vacation last week, oh what a joy. I really had a blast :)
We went to Texel, it's a little island up in the north of Holland, Althrough the trip to Texel was very stormy, the weather changed and it got sunny and I was very happy :).
We cyceled around the island, went to the fairytales of the sea, went for dinner, fishing on the Waddenzee (VERY MUCH FUN!), watched sunsets, soo as you can see we had lots of fun!!
Here are some pictures:

For more pictures go to the gallery and for even more visit my Myspace page. (Only for friends!)

Today my family from Denmark is coming over, I'm very happy to see them again, I always double-enjoy the times that they're around. :)
From sunday on I'll start working at ZorgThuis (Home Care service), I'll be washing people and so on, thank god I dont have to clean no more :P
The Plugs
Maria will be moving her site to my server, as I told you before.. it will happen soon, so look out ;) {new URL}
Also I updated the affiliates page :) So Lotte your back on the active list again and I changed some URLs to their new URLs :)
Thanks for the lovely comments:
Raymond, Samantha, Jamie, Lotte, Ingrid & Maria.

Poem
{July 3rd - }

So you survived my comeback? Damn! No just kidding haha, I'm almost having vacation. Oh what a joy. I only have a portfolio-chat tomorrow on school and thats the last thing I have to do. yay.
So my blog is going to tell you about vacations. So Im leaving this Friday with my parents to Texel, so you can expect some wonferful pictures, Im not sure if the weather will work along, lol but I need sun. Than the 1st week of August I'll be leaving with Maria to the Utrechtse Heuvelrug, Im so excited, we planned on doing daytrips to Maastricht and Scheveningen. Oh love it! You see that with a small amount of money you can do a lot ;)

Oh this is such a pointless blog, lol make it more useful I made a poem in dutch, so read it..

Soms kijk ik in de lucht
Dan denk ik aan jou
Daar vliegen mijn gedachten en met een zucht
Vraag ik me af waar je bent

Zou jij nu ook naar de lucht turen?
Naar die zee van blinkende sterren
Onze blikken die elkaar onze gedachten sturen
Die elkaar ontmoeten in de sterrenzee

We dansen met elkaars blikken in de zee
Spelen met elkaars gedachten
Ik wil met je mee
Dansen over de sterren

And no I'm not in love :D lol just a regular poem.
The Art
I made some icons featuring Avril Lavigne, Rehanna, Scarlet Johannsen. For more visit THE ART

The Plugs
Im looking for new affiliates, so you can fill out the form at the affiliates page :)

Thanks for the lovely comments.... the system doesn't work for me somehow, so again thanks to you all :)
Guess who's back?
{June 26th - }

The return of the evil Remma.. watch yourself cause your blog is going to be spammed with comments. gna gna You see? I need to catch up :P

So have you missed me? I haven't actually missed the internet too much, only to do some schoolwork, but other than that a big fat vacation. LOL. I have some new plans coming up for the next week. My friend, Maria is going to launch a site on my server. So better watch out.. ;)
Im finishing up for school, I have to make a nursing plan tomorrow and finish it. Oh lord, lol and I have this exam for Anatomics on Friday. You better wish me some big fat luck. I need it. I finished 2 tests in between. Both with 100%, say WHAT? yes Im a nerd. LOL

Uhm what did I do more?
- Forget about that Orange-cutie, lol, never saw him again.
- Bought tickets for some Hallelujah event in Walibi world, where Brian Littrell (BSB) is attending
- Study, Study, Study
- Went to Lucie Silvas. Check some vids at my youtube channel.

The Art
I actually made no arts what so ever, I did wrote a poem, after Esje suddenly text messaged me that I was talented. Thanks you girl! LOL. But it's kind of personal, so won't upload it this time.

Oh wait...I made a new layout, what do you think of it? Geez I almost forgot, You can find the credits on the domain page.
The Plugs
Im looking for new affiliates, so you can fill out the form at the affiliates page :)

Thanks for the lovely comments:
Raymond, Samantha, Olga, Sarah, Christina, Mandy & Maria.

AND A BIG FAT PLUG TO MELIANE, BECAUSE I ADORE YOUR NEW LAYOUT BABE!

Am I having butterflies?
{June 3rd - }

Yes a new blog, and Yes I still have internet, for some odd reason. I do love @home for once in my life. LOL... but it will probably be shut down soon.
Anyways I wanted to get something off my chest...

I have this crazy feeling inside of me and I dont know what to do...
See there is this guy from our new internet provider's shop.. and he is SOOO CUTE
Let me explain...
Thursday-eavning I went there to yell and this guy helped us, he was nice, but nothing else, I just said what I had to get off my chest and he advised me to call a number. So I got home and I did, and it didn't help, so yesterday I went back to the shop together with my mom..
He imediatly came towards us asking how things went, well we explained it didn't work and well he told us all he could do is make the contract all over again. Okay so we did, he was very nice and I noticed some weird click-moment. I don't know what it was, but it's just a stupid feeling. When he walked away to copy the contract, I started complaining to my mom about how I couldn't practice my digital tests and he came back and asked what I studied and not much later he started to ask where I studied. He started telling about he needed to do tests too and stuff.
Anyways as we walked out the store, my mom looked to me and raised her eyebrow, and I was like HE IS CUTE.

My mom agreed, but he might be much older than I am, I guess he's around 26/27... But ... the next thing is what do I have to do? Im not really sure anymore, maybe he was just very nice and thats it, or maybe it was something more? ARGH!

The Art
Some of you might know I used to have a site called BSB4Ever.. I reopened it for once, so you can get off all your downloads. I also made a layout for it, so check :)
As was getting into the Backstreet feeling again.. I made 15 new icons and 2 new wallpapers.


The Plugs
Im looking for new affiliates, so you can fill out the form at the web page :)

Thanks for the lovely comments:
Sarah, Lotte, Samantha & Olga.

No internet and phone :(
{May 31st - }

Due problems with my new internet privder I can't acces internet and phone for a month. It's very shitty, I don't really care about life without the site, or youtube, but I do care about life without telebanking, hotmail and digital tests from school. Im really pissed off at the moment, it's frustrating to know there is NO internet for the coming weeks and it really sucks.

Tomorrow I'll go to the Orange-shop and I'll yell and shout, for now.. blah :D

Oh and I wanted to leave a little note about my grandma, thanks for all the support that Ive gotten, it really touched me.
She is doing a bit better, yes it's a miracle, but still it was her last shot and the bacteria is being pressed down by anti biotics, so it's kind of still the same situation. But thanks again for all the love and support. Muah.
BY THE WAY: It's two years ago I lost my BSB virginity in Cologne, Germany. *sigh*... I want Backstreet's back ;)
The Plugs

Thanks for the lovely comments
Beth, Raymond, Meliane, Olga, Lotte, Autumn, Maaike, Fleur, Sarah, Pauline, Karah, Maria, Samantha & Mandy. .

She is slipping away..
{May 26th - }

The past days have been some emotional days. Thursday seemed to be such a nice day, I sat in the sun at the 'Grote Markt' with some friends when I recieved the phone call that my grandma got hospitalized. They are giving her a last shot.
Althrough I know my grandma has been very sick the past 1,5 year it was still very hard to get. In the eavning I went to my grandma and I was shocked, she didn't react at all. She was in a sub-coma, so it was bad.

The next morning (yesterday) I went to school but I couldnt concentrate so I decided to go home, as I was waiting on my bus I called my grandpa and he just called the hospital she was responding again. It gave me such a double-feeling, I love her, don't get me wrong I dont want her to die, but I also don't want her to suffer like she is doing now. And I know the bacteria she has won't go away. I know this was the last chance and that it's only a matter of weeks. So it was very double. I went to the hospital and she was still very weak and she slept the entire time. It was a sad view to watch. It's not my grandma anymore.

My family from Denmark rushed to The Netherlands to see my grandma. So .. these days are hard. Very painful..
I just wanted to tell you and get it off my chest, love you all

The Plugs

Thanks for the lovely comments
No plugs this time, love you mucho!

Im very giving today..
{May 23th - }

Im such a lovely person today. I really am, I collected money in the town centre for the Asthma Foundation, I think I did very great. I suddenly realized how shitty it is when people don't even let you finish your sentence (I always did that too!!), Im going to change my additude haha, The past days Ive been practising for a exam, It's not really hard actually but still I want to get at least 95% LOL. So yes school took a lot of my time, but also I had the greatest weekend in a long while.

Esje visited me!! She lives in the south of Holland and it takes 4 hours to get to my place, Ah! So Friday I picked her up and we chatted sooo much, we suddenly realised it was 5.15 AM (oooooooops) so we decided to sleep. Oh and we also rented two movies, Step up and The devil wears prada. I love watching girlie movies. So on Saturday we went shopping. I bought a new purse and I bought new flip flops. Im kind of more broke now than I was before (song: Heeey big spendeeeer) In the eavning we chatted again and watched another movie.
The next day Esje, my mom and I went to a jewerly-event and I bought everything to make my own bracelet, and I did and it worked. It looooks sooo pretty!!!
I'll make a picutre later!!


The Art
I made a new temporary layout, I really hated the last one, I like the wiz, don't get me wrong, but I dislikes the colors and it's not my style, so this is a temporary one until I find something better. Like it?


The Plugs
Im looking for new affiliates, so you can fill out the form at the web page :)

Thanks for the lovely comments:
Sarah, Maria, jwn, Lotte Samantha & My girl Kadri is back, take a look at her site. Love it!!

Trauma-training
{May 11th - }



Today I went to a trauma training. There was ambulance, police, firefighters and they explained how to get to work when a big exident happends. It was raining big time, and I was soaked and cold, lol, and as we were sitting for hours in the rain, I started to get colder and colder.
The guy who explained everything, wasn't top of the hill either and they promised a trauma-flight would come, but there happened an exident somewhere else, so duh, that was more inportant.
We decided to go home earlier, cause it was so freaking cold. I hate rain, I really do
We did have fun joking about our hair getting messed up and the person in the car who needed to wait till the rain was over ;)
LOL Im sure Ill be a great nurse!

I watched the Eurovision song contest pre-slection yesterdaynight. What a bummer. I swear we had the best song ever, PROOF HERE, I don't understand why she isn't selected for the finals.
I don't think it's fair anymore with the voting, cause it's always eastern-europe now. Blah.

Oh by the way I got some condoms, easy slide, LOL, from the training, stop aids now was there. LOL.. everybody's rockin' tonight ;) Just joking haha


The Plugs
Finally we're affiliates, lol, that took quite some time, welcome Gaby!

Thanks for the lovely comments:
Sarah, Sharon, Maria, Fien, Olga, jwn, Dee & LingLing.

Mayvacation!!
{May 5th - }

Oh I had such a fun and busy May vacation, lol I'll tell you about each day a bit ;)

April 29th I went to Lucy and Boaz and I ate some dinner. It was so nice, after dinner we went into the town centre and we just danced to the music. It was queensnight so thats why there were lots of parties. We had such a blast together!!
April 30/May 1st - Queensday, I went to the town centre with my parents. We watched music, theatre and so on. It was very hot and soo crowdy! In the eavning I went with Maria into the town centre. There was this band who also played last year, they played old songs along with some party songs. Oh we met about 6 guys. Wished strange people a happy new year (what?) and we sang at the Big market. LOL
May 1st - Today I went to Mariska her birthday party. It was very cool, cause I haven't seen my classmates from last year in a long time. So we chatted along and it was soo much fun!
May 3rd - We left early morning to Utrecht and we arrived around 12.00. We walked around the city, watched the dom tower and we shopped. We found a very cute African shop. Loved it! After shopping we dinnered at La Place and we finally went to the Beatrix Theatre and we watched THE WIZ, oh it was so beautiful. It was actually my first big production musical that I ever saw, so wow! I was impressed. After that we sad in the Lounge and Maria and I danced for 5 mins in the disco ;) We were back in my town at 2.30 AM :P
May 4th - Yesterday my grandpa turned 88! I looked foward to this day, but somehow along the way it turned nasty. My grandma is still in the hospital. And they acted very nasty. I ain'tgoing to explain all of it, but let me say.. they are very wrong. Other people could get sick and die, from their actions and we didn't got sorry for it. Oh well at the end of the day we ate some cake and we celebrated my grandpa's birthday.
May 5th - Today is the freedom festival, where we celebrate our freedom. I planned on going the entire day, but Im so tired and worn out I decided to go at 6 PM till late ;) Monica will sleep over tonight!

Don't you think I have a wonderful life.. lol :D Tuesday I'll start school again ;)


The Art/Site Stuff
I rewrote the 'Friends' section. and I made a new layout. I wasn't satisfied with the last layout.
And I really got inspired by the Wiz, so yay a wiz layout. LOL
The Plugs
I have a new affiliate, welcome!!

Thanks for the lovely comments:
Sarah, Olga, Helene, Mandy, Maria, Raymond, Sharon2x, Meliane, Eline, Kadri, Lotte & Raymond.

My ordinary life.
{April 22th - }

I have never loved my ordinary life more than last week. Really, what a joy!
The first week after internship was a blast. I could actually sleep till 7.30 or even longer! Wednesday I went to Das Leben der Anderen, it's a beautiful movie.
Thursday I went to school to check if I had TBC, which I didn't, thank God, and after that Joyce, Marijse and I went to Bagels and Beans. They had these cute hold up signs. They we're so funny.. LOL anyways I had a delicious toasted bagel with cheese, ham and tomato. yum
After that we went shopping, I bought a skirt that I don't like after all, so I'm going to return it LOL... I'm such an impulsive shopper haha.

Oh I'm going to have a blast about a week yay, my agenda:
April 29th/30th - Queensnight, partying with Lucy in the town centre!
April 30/May 1st - Queensday, partying again the whole day + night with Maria.
May 1st - Mariska het birthday party
May 3rd - THE WIZ! musical
May 4th - Grandpa's birthday
May 5th - Freedom festival, partying yeaaa

Oh yes I love my student life!


The Art/Site Stuff
I rearranged the Remma section, re-wrote the Child of deaf adult part, added songs to the Jukebox and changed the Gallery.
I also made a bunch of new arts, can you see I have more time on my hands right now? ;)


And I also added 9 new Christina Aguilera icons.
The Plugs
Thanks for the lovely comments:
Olga, Lotte, Fien, Mandy, Samantha & Helene.

I PASSED MY INTERNSHIP!!!!
{April 19th - }

Oh my God! Can you believe it? After AAALLLL the drama going on with my internship I still made it! I passed!
I'm so relieved it means that I don't have to do the internship over again and it means I can go further yay! I want to hug the world. LOL
I'm so thankful without Mom, Loura and Maria, I couldn't have done it. I mean almost a dozen of times I cried and screamed 'I wanna quit NOW', but they always seemed to get me back on track.
Anyways I just wanted to scream it on here. LOL

The Plugs
Thanks for the lovely comments about the new layout, Im really touched by each and everyone of them:
Ingrid, Raymond, Lotte, Fien, Olga, Jen, Sarah & Mandy.

Poor World.
{April 17th - }

And I know that it's a wonderful world
But I cant feel it right now.
James Morrison

Geez. There are some fucked up people in this world. Really. As you might have heard there was a shooting at a Uni in Virginia. It makes me sad to know people are actually so within themselves to own the right to decide to kill and harm people.
I suggest you to see Bowling for Columbine and just think about what a weird world it is that you can actually buy guns at Walmart. I can't even imagine going to do groceries here and buy a 9 mm gun and Dreft.

Anyways on to a diffrent subject.. I finished my internship, wednesday I'll have my end-evaluation, it's a surprice how I'll be judged. Today was my first school day again. I went to school to get a Matoux-injection. Damn that thing hurted like hell. The needle was injected in my underarm and after I was injected a little bump was under my skin. Yuck!


The Art
I made this new layout, featuring the wonderful, inspiring Christina Aguilera. I used textures from Hybrid Genisis.
Give me some comments, next updates I'll add more, but it's midnight by now.
The Plugs
Thanks for the lovely comments:
Maria, Kelly, Mandy, Meliane, Olga, Lotte, Jen, Ingrid & Samantha.

MY INNERPEACE RETURNED!

{April 2nd - }

Thanks for the encouraging comments. They really helped me to get through. Oh how I love this world. I have the sweetest people surrounding me who love me and are so sweet.
I wanted something diffrent for the site, but I didn't had time to make another layout so I made this one a few days ago, I promise after my internship is over (2 weeks) there'll be a new layout. Totally new everything.
For now this little easter layout. Isn't it cute? I love Pooh!

A few days ago I was listening to singing my song from christina aguilera. Damn, that girl always has the right lyrics for the right emotions.

I believe they can take anything from me, but they
Can't succeed in taking my inner piece from me
They can say all they wanna say about me, but I
I'm gonna carry on (carry on)
I'ma keep on (keep on)
Singing my song, yeah yeah

Today I got the biggest compliment in the world. I was showering this man and he was like: My wife and I talked about you and we said: If Nurse Remma finishes her school she will be the best nurse in the world. She's a fast learner with a lot of potential."
OMG That was HUGE, I mean he was a patient of mine, like woah :D Yaaay! Fuck my coach, fuck the world and live life and I'll deff gonna keep on singing my song whatever they say!

PLUGS
Thanks to my wonderful affiliate Helene for the Happy easter art :) yaay!

Thanks for the lovely comments:
Mylene, Mandy, Maria, Eline, Anita, Olga & Jen.

Furious
{March 28th - }

Oh I'm so furious! I really am.
I told you about the problems at my internship right? Well I'm not going to tell everything, but yet they want to let me fail for NO reason. I was 'sick' a lot. (I was 6 days sick, and 1 day my grandma got in ICU) that's 59,5 hours total. BUT they also count in the 3 days that I was off because of the problems at my internship. Meaning suddenly 85 hours. (While the limit is 76 hours.) They said to me that I'd be better off staying home cause my coach couldn't handle me at the moment.
Well it just made me furious, cause I was like.. I WANT to finish it, and I'm offering anything for it. I willing to work in the weekend, if they promise me they wont let me fail.

I contacted school and they agreed with me, things weren't supposed to go like this. I'm really furious.

They just WANT to let me fail, cause they can say it isn't their fault. They know they're wrong.

Really I didn't feel the joy anymore to go to my internship, but it's REALLY REALLY gone now. At the one hand I want to quit en just bug out of it, but at the other hand, I put 2 months of my energy into this whole mess and I have to go just 3 more weeks. So I don't know what to do actually. ARGH


THE ART

No art updates, I'm just here to rag on about my stupid internship. Fuckers!
PLUGS
I have one new affiliate, welcome Sharon:

Thanks for the lovely comments:
Sarah Mandy, Maria, Raymond, JWN, Lotte, Evelien, Olga, Jen & Merel.

First time in a car!!
{March 18th - }

I'm getting driverslessons soon, but since I don't know anything on cars or how to drive them lol, my mom and I went to a parkinglot. She explained me how a car works and I tried to bring her theory into practice. My goodness.. it isn't easy! lol
I first pushed the gas way to hard and than I just pulled my feet of everything, So the car started shocking. LOL after serveral times the same thing it finally got to me. I was screaming: OH MY GOD I'M DRIVING.... WHAT DO I HAVE TO DO!!!!
After that we went to a road, there were no cars and I practised even more. In the end I drove 500 meters straight foward, change gears and make a turn to the left. The only thing that went wrong was me pushing the brakes too hard. LOL.. thank god for seatbelts.
Next sunday I'm going to practice again. I did have a good laughter haha.

Now I also have a good video for all the ladies here lol. I was watching Mooi weer de Leeuw (dutch tv program) and they wanted to give away a sauna, if someone dared to go in naked. And this HOT boy went in. Isn't he gorgeous. LOL naked ;) the video
I keep LOL-ing too much, I need to stop hahaha. I already deleted 3 LOL's in this texts, Imagine ;)

THE ART

I made 5 new icons again!!


PLUGS
I have a new affiliate Royal Couture, uh with my little bit german? Ich liebe dich? :P

Mandy, Maria, Gaby, Eline, Fien, Mylene, Cinja, Sarah & Anita.

I live in a pink cloud!
{March 14th - }

I'm currently surviving. Surviving my internship.
I've always heard these horror stories about internships who really sucked, I never realized my first internship would become my own nightmare. A week ago I had a whole day full of emotions. A short summary: The things I have to do are going great. My work at the moment is fine. BUT my coach and I can't stand eachother.
That sucks, she keeps calling me names and such and I love myself enough to not let myself go through this. So she better shut her mounth and be proffessional.

I made this awesome agenda on my pc, for the last 5 weeks of internship. I think I'm going to make a huge ugly poster of my coach and everytime a day is over I'll throw something at her. Hallelujah.
I want to accomplish to finish this internship in holy peace. I want to do this for myself. Cause I know I'm strong and I can handle it. (lol) i'm just trying to convince myself at the moment. haha

Oh and did you know I lived on a pink cloud. My coach accused me of that. She wants to help me to see the 'real' world. lol
She doesn't know me at all and she clearly has the wrong image of me. Pfft!!

THE ART

Christina is so addicting lol. I made 8 new icons, they aren't that good, but I decided to add them anyways..


PLUGS
By excident I deleted my last entry, I did read all the comments through and I love each and every one of them. I can't plug you anymore, cause don't know each person who plugged. But thanks thanks thanks! Leave a comment again and I'm sure you get a big FAT plug!
I do LOVE you!

life changing
{February 28th - }

I'm going to change my life.
I'm not sure through how.. lol

Maria her blog inspired me to start a new life. Oh well maybe a bit overreacted. But she inspired me at least on the subject 'Men'
I, Remma, am going to find a guy. Not a boyfriend, but someone to have fun with. Nothing more, nothing less.
I always was trying to really LOOK for the perfect boyfriend and something serious, but since I dont find him, I'll change my way. I'm just going to have fun with them.
I wonder why I need years in order to find these kind of things out. lol.

Today I had a fight with my umbrella, and no not like Britney Spears, but just me and the umbrella. It was raining really bad and very windy and I couldn't handle that stupid umbrella. I was like: ahh cause I just fixed my hair lol. I gave up after 5 minutes of fighting and let the rain fall down on me. Lucy and I went to a Mexican lunchroom and we drunk some tea and such delicious chocolate cake. I swear it was sooooo yummie! I gasped, it was so hot! LOL I call it erotic cake. It really is tasteful.
Tomorrow I'm going to shop with my grandpa, he needs new clothes and his words: I'm stylish and I know about it.
LOL, I ♥ my grandpa
THE ART

I made around 40 new icons. Yes I have vacation ;) Check the circle below to view them.
A bunch of Christina Aguilera, and 3 of BSB.


PLUGS
I opened a new contact form, where you can submit your (HQ) website to be affiliates.
Thanks for the comments ♥
YeJi, Olga, Talitha, Bibi, Lotte, Kadri2x, Maria, Samantha, Raymond, Mandy, Gaby & Kelly

Reality bites
{February 18th - }

I finished another week of internship. Somewhere in the middle of the week things went really shitty. I thought I would break in pieces. Thank God for having my sweet supporting mom. Anyways my grandma got rushed into the hospital on Tuesday. This time it was very critical. They asked us if she would get a heartattack they had to do something or not?
Geez... bam! The reality smashed into your face. She spended 2 days in ICU. I was really worried this time, cause the things didn't seem to bright.
She's back on track but I have no idea for how long, reality is.. if she gets another infection... it will be over. probably.

Oh well on the brighter side.. last week I spended a night with Lucy and her new boyfriend. We ate mexican wraps. Yum!
And last Friday I went with Maria and Peka to a pub. We had fun. Maria told me to go, cause I need some relaxing time. So I did.

My valentine wasn't anything special at all. I got a sweet chocolate-bar from my mom. On the wrapping it said: 1000 kisses, cause I love you.

THE ART

I made this new layout. I hope you like it? The model is Jessica Stam. The pictures are so bright and colorful. I really like it.
The art is down in the circle. Tell me what you think :)



PLUGS
Thanks for the comments ♥
Bibi, Olga, Samantha, Maria, Raymond, JWN, Kadri2x,

Sinking In
{February 12th - }

So my last day off, tomorrow I'm starting my internship again. I started last week as a nurse haha. It's very cool. Heavy, I'm so tired at the end of the day, but it's still very nice work :). I've learned a lot.

Wednesday I went to Lucie Silvas with Joyce. Before we went to the concert we ate at Mr Monsongo. It was very nice, after that we walked to the Oosterpoort. We decided to take some seats instead of standing. Thank god! lol.
The supporting act was Chris cope, he was cool, I never actually enjoyed a supporting act. But this guy was cool.
I made a lot of video's and uploaded them at youtube. Click below to watch them.
Chris Cope
Lucie silvas - Entrance
Lucie silvas - Nothing else matters
Lucie Silvas- What you're made of
Lucie Silvas- Something about you
Lucie Silvas- Twisting the chain and Breathe in
Lucie Silvas- dunno the title?
Lucie Silvas- forget me not - end


THE ART

I made 4 new Backstreet Boys icons and a bunch more Christina Aguilera icons.



PLUGS
I have a new affiliate, welcome :)

Thanks for the comments ♥
Mandy, Raymond, Lotte, Olga Samantha2x, Maria, Talitha, Bibi, Marijke & Mylene.